I was watching one of my favorite YouTube channels,
Soul Toz, who’s been vlogging about her Kundalini Awakening for about the last
3 or 4 years, and now, quite recently she has been saying that her condition
has quite stabilized to what seems to be a new ‘normal’. She had been accustomed to a lot of
tumultuous emotional and physical upheavals; rollercoastering a ridgeline of
highs and lows, and her recent leveling off took her quite by surprise. She was puzzled by it at first but has come
to now accept it as a positive development – a kind of plateau before a vaster
more significant step, whatever that is to be, and she was not at all sure
herself what she might expect. She calls
this impending development the “5D”. I
had to google it. The term seems to
refer vaguely to what we could understand as Spirituality’s Next Big Thing. I would refer to it more specifically as the
Collective Consciousness, where people will go from I-consciousness to
We-consciousness, but that is just my opinion and I haven’t heard very many
other people suggesting anything along similar lines. Most New Age Spiritualists today are still circling
around with the prevailing philosophies of over hundred years ago – the very
philosophies that brought us the Great Wars – the philosophies of the likes of Nietzsche
who saw the Evolutionary Spiritual Process in terms of its creating individual
Supermen and Women. I would tend to see
that as a step backwards, wouldn’t you? The World today is in no way lacking of
individuals who not only assert their own individual superiorities, mostly in
the material sense, but go a long way toward imposing them on all the rest of
us. For a few select individuals to become
Masters, the rest of us must all become Slaves, no? But a Collective Consciousness would raise us
up all together.
But that is itself vague theorizing. The practical issue in regards to Soulful Toz’s
newfound condition of normalcy, is whether she is still, or perhaps ever was,
in control of her Kundalini’s movements.
Perhaps all of her Kundalini Movements were simply acting upon her, and
she was more or less the passive recipient. Of course I would acknowledge the strong
possibility that the Kundalini has its own inherent Wisdom, while also taking
note that Kundalini Awakenings can be catastrophic for some people. Anyway, I would like to ask Madame Toz if she
can control any of it, but she has so many subscribers (it’s now in the
thousands. She will soon catch up to the
Kitten Lady) that I would doubt I could catch her attention. Maybe somebody will mention this blog to her.
Now about the possibility that a person might be
able to control his own Kundalini Energies.
I myself was initiated into a little heard about Kundalini Yoga system
decades ago. A guru from India, whom I
will refer to as the Old Guy and won’t mention the name of his system because
he died some years back and I have no idea whom it was who may have swopped in and
usurped the Property Rights to his System, and so I am a bit afraid of getting
sued for copyright infringement or whatever from some chiseling conniving greedy
scheming New Age Predator (who is so used to being called a Master that he has
begun to believe it himself). Anyway, the System consisted basically of awakening
the Kundalini using touch (Shaktipat), which is actual common to a number of Systems
that I know about, and probably goes back far enough to be considered common
domain, but that wouldn’t stop some lawyers from threatening to sue and
demanding a settlement offer to make the problem go away (the only Legal Black
Mail allowed nowadays is, well “Legal” Black Mail, committed by lawyers under
the noses of Judges who forget the Dignity and Responsibility of the Robes they
wear and only remember that when they were themselves Lawyers that they would
lie and swindle in the same manner, and so it must therefore be entirely
upright and ethical). But, back on topic, one of the things I noticed
even before my initiations was that I would feel a pressure sensation at the
location of my Ajna Center whenever I was around the Old Guy or some of his
Initiates (the Cool Ones). I guess the
Kundalini has a kind of a vibratory resonance that can reach out well beyond the
skin, so that other people can sometimes ‘catch the buzz’, if they happen to be
tuned in close enough to it.
His System was not a hundred percent reliable – not even
close. I was quite the activist back then
in my younger days and was able to bring a veritable busload of prospective
initiates to his door. His followers at
the time tried to do some ‘Gatekeeping” and talked of the usual ‘donations’ but
the Old Guy waved the fees, citing an atypical ‘student discount’ that I had
suggested to him, which would be whatever the kids could afford to part with
which wouldn’t be much. So there were
about 20 New Initiates whom I was in contact with. Most didn’t feel anything with their
Initiation, and some only developed headaches.
The Success Rate seemed to hover at around 15%, that is, people who
would describe a consistent pressure at the location of their Ajna Center, and
then subsequently the at Tail Bone Center and then the Crown Chakra, as the
Initiations progressed from week to week.
Yes, now that I think about it and remember back, one could strengthen
the sense of pressure by focusing attention on these particular chakras, but
moving the energy around generally did not seem to be on the menu at the time.
But the Old Guy eventually had a plane to catch. He was not officially On World Tour in those
days, but he would visit his Old Initiates who had emigrated from India to
other parts of the World, and use those social opportunities to advance his Kundalini
Yoga System. But he would return in the
next year, and I would become eligible for the Universal Consciousness
Initiation. Wow! Right? Well, the year came and I sat for the
Initiation. Oh, I need to mention one of
the Old Guy’s tricks, and that was not to give out any descriptions of what
exactly the Initiations would be like. But
after the Initiation he would ask what the Experience had been like for the New
Initiate. You see, this procedure would
be effective at discerning people who were Placebo Effected or subject to Suggestion
or who had received nothing but wished to be polite and pretend they did. Only people who experienced an effective Initiation
could describe something close to what the Initiation was actually designed to
deliver. So I sat for the Universal
Consciousness Initiation and the Old Guy did whatever it was he did for that
one, which I didn’t bother to remember because I got nothing from it. So when he asked me what I experienced I told
him “Well, I got the other Initiations good enough, but I guess this is the One
that got away”, and just sort of shrugged my shoulders. I suppose the Old Guy was struck by my
honesty, as I would guess it is customary to ‘make up something’ so you don’t
leave the Old Guy feeling like he failed.
But I read his little books. This
guy was basically a science based rationalist and a mature adult, and so he
would both want and expect the truth, at least from another science based
rational individual (or as close to that as I could manage and still be a young
man at the same time). So the Old Guy
thought for a moment and then gave me what was really my most significant Initiation. He said, “Hmmmm, well I don’t want you to go away
with nothing and so let me teach you a trick I learned. It is the Key to moving the Kundalini around
your body. Wiggle your head around and
locate the swivel point at the top of your spine at the base of your
brain. Now energize your Ajna Chakra and
bring the Energy back along the top of your pallet to that Swivel Point. The Energy will feel like a little ball,
about as big as a ping-pong ball, but that is way too big. You want the energy to focus down to being a
lot smaller. Visualize it like an onion
where you are removing skin after skin and it is getting smaller and
smaller. It only takes a few minutes to
get it down to the right size, about the size of a pea. This is one time that Bigger isn’t Better.” I listened to him and this is one time when
he didn’t use touch or wave his hands around anywhere. I
followed along with what he was telling me and the amorphous sensation of
energy did slowly focus down and get smaller and more solid, and then I noticed
that it was difficult to keep it from wiggling – it seemed to spin slightly
with a small erratic wobble or swing, which I mentioned, and the Old Guy said, “Good.
You found it. Now that is the Key. Once you get your Energy there (it behaves
like a valve) you can take it to any part of your body. Move your energy to your right hand”. So I
did, and I said “Wow, I was never able to do that before”. Then he said, “Okay, you have heard about all
those other Chakras in your body, right?
So try moving your energy down through your body and see what you feel”. Now it
was only a feeling of pressure – not big Lights and Colors (only in my Dreams do
they light up), but it was a tangible feeling of pressure that never existed
before and I moved it from Chakra to Chakra.
I said “Cool!” and as I described it and the Old Guy smiled. I suppose he was a realist enough to be aware
of his own dismal failure rate, and so he cherished each little success that
came along.
So, for decades now I have been able to move my
Kundalini around. I have combined that
with various breathing exercises which intensify the Energy somewhat. I can actually get a tangible feeling of
raising the Kundalini up over my head, by what feels like between 12 and 18
inches or about a half a meter. I can
make it ball up into a roundish 3 dimensional halo, or tower it up to a peak,
or even spin it like a kind of propeller.
Another thing I learned to do was to fill my Personal Space with Energy. You see, our Mental Body is more than our
Physical Body in the sense that our Mental Body is Everywhere we can move our
hands and feet – the Mental Body is a kind of Coordinate System which
incorporates anywhere we can reach out to touch or tap with our hands or feet. It is kind of roundish like an egg. I can fill that with a kind of translucent
light, which I can feel more than see (but it ‘imagines’ as light). In dreams it is Light.
So I was wondering if Soulful Toz has found that
little secret or whether she only gets whatever she happens to get, as a
passive recipient.
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